Asher: (ash’-er) blessed; happy one.
That is what we are calling him for now. Our little boy – black hair, shining eyes, and a great big, heart-melting smile.
It started as a conversation in our kitchen in November. During the month of December it had turned into an option. And by January, it had transformed into a mind-consuming vision for the future. Then, out of nowhere, February confirmed it as God’s calling for our lives.
We will begin to grow our family in 2016. This will begin with an application to Holt International Adoption Agency. We will eventually travel across the world to find the little boy I’ve seen in my dreams – the one whose soul matches ours so completely and divinely.
He is our “Plan A,” we have no major struggles with fertility, no reason to not “have our own,” as we’ve been asked. But I’ve seen my child, we have heard God tell us to find him, and we won’t stop until we are brought together.
So, in some tiny way, this is our announcement that we are expecting. How exciting is that?
I know you took a look at yourself in the mirror today. What did you see? A tired, broken body? Eyes masking the torment coursing through your mind? A reflection reminding you of every flaw covering your life? Forget it all! It’s time you start allowing God to step into your life and change your image of yourself.
“He saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy.” Titus 3:5
You’re actions alone will never be good enough. But that’s okay; God wants you to rely on Him. And trust me, when you stop carrying around the burden of trying (and desperately failing) to do anything without Him, you realize your “good enough” was nowhere near what you wanted anyways. Giving it all, and I mean all, will radically change your life!
The day you stop fighting to prove your worth, you will begin to see your worth in God. He created you, He knows you, and loves you despite all of your flaws. He knows the deepest, darkest things you hide from the world. And still loves you. Let Him in. Stop fighting. Start seeing yourself the way He created you instead of the way the world wants you to see yourself. You are worth so much more!! And you don’t have to do a thing to prove it. Let Him prove it to you and it will begin to shine through as evidence.
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Psalm 139: 13-15